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Thursday, January 18, 2007
- pffft... @ 2:55 PM and fadzli will be clubbing at mos. cool kan. and tonight at mos is some tertiary fling thing. maybe he will find some smart-ass chick who is smarter than me. who is a pretty whore. a fucking thin bitch. then he will dump me for her. what's new. its a norm. guys dump girls. damn it. i m pissed. no. i m not controlling his fucking life. he is a bloody 27yo who will be turning fucking 28yo this year. he knows how to take care of his damn life. and he should know better about what he does that will make me fucking pissed off. he should fucking know by now la. i wont care anymore if he's gonna get pissed drunk and end up fucking all the clubbers who is with pussies. i dont fucking care anymore. because if he does that, then i'll leave. maybe that is what he has been wanting me to do. to leave. so he won't be this damn "bad guy" who does the dumping but rather he's the one who got "dumped". i m tired pretending like i dont mind and shit when the thing is i do. i bloody mind that he clubs. i fucking care if he drinks. and all this while, i've been acting like i m ok. I AM NOT FUCKING OK!!!! i m tired. i m bloody tired. its our fucking 3rd month and he is bloody enjoying himself at a club full of girls. damn it. and i have no right to be jealous at all? bullshit. damn it. dont get me wrong. i love him much. too much i supposed. i cant believe i m actually crying typing this entry. i just wished he didnt go. i was so looking forward to meeting him today. its his off day. i guess i m just too used to meeting him on his off days. and not being able to meet him today, i guess i felt cheated. damn it. mr. mohd fadzli b jamaludin, i hope you know i fucking love u truckloads. i just wish you'll understand... you know you love me, |
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