he's so adorable la. he's sick. and it was an ice cream cake from swensen's for his birthday.
after a few suap-s, he said he dont want anymore. because he said if he eat some more, he wont get well.

but it was different for syukriah of course. we didnt want to give her anymore of the cake because she was sick too.

so she did what she had to do....

sungguh baik kan dia.

saturday, 17th of march was k. mary's wedding dinner. went with my beloved of course. <3

macam dia kan yang nak kahwin. heh.

we very the glamorous ok. i know. heh.

table 14

sunday was our monthsary. =)
went for a meetng with the p2r & yia+ committee.
walked around ang mo kio hub. actually more of the ntuc extra hypermart.

lunch at banquet for fadzli and me.
half spring chicken with rice. didnt finish the chicken.

wasted fadzli's $4.50.
because i puked everything out aftwards. bleargh.

was real sick on monday. went to pasir ris poly to take mc.
and i just got to know that all the polyclinics in singapore may not necessarily fall under one company or organisation.
and it was damn fast la ok. waited for less than an hour to settle everything.
got 2 days mc.
while waiting for the doc, managed to cam whore a bit.

ran some errands afterwards.
briyani for lunch at blue diamond.yum yum.

then i puked everything out again. -_-"

sat at macd to settle some of my work.
kesian kan. mc pun kena kerja from home.

already starting to feel like shit. mr. keanu's batt went flat and we have no idea where to go.

so fadzli suggested we go play pool.

there are pictures taken. but if you wanna view them, please visit phudzlee-thiramisu inc., ok?

dinner was hor fun. nearly puked everything out again.
bought sour plum. better.

tuesday was lunch only with fadzli. he had a course at mount vernon camp about some armoury thingie.

bored at home.
so i entertained myself with this.


then, something which had not happened for a very long long time happened la.
my nose bled.
uuuurrrghhh.
da lama seh hidung tak berdarah.
and this time, the darah keluar macam tap air la.
and then all lumpy-lumpy like that.

*pictures may be disgusting. kindly skip if you have a weak stomach*

disgusting kan. da cakap pe.

took urgent leave yesterday, wednesday. wa sakit tak leh tahan lo.
lunch with fadzli again. this time syukriah followed.
slept the whole day.

and today was back to work.
and i was drowsy the whole day.

fadzli treated me to seafood dinner after work.
maklum la kan orang tu dapat performance bonus.

pffft.

and i nearly died la just now.

curses to the lorry driver la. 5814.
fadzli braked la. emergency brake of course.

bodoh peh anak. nak tukar lane pakai tukar je. buta pe. side view mirror buat apa. untuk kau pakai make up pe. tengok arh kalau tak nak bagi signal pun, kalau-kalau ada kereta nak jalan.
macam sial. kau ingat lorry kau besar boleh suka-suka hati mak bapak kau pe drive mcm datuk kau peh jalan.

and my head hurts coz i flew forward. and my ankle hurts because i was trying to stop myself from flying forward. and i was pale all the way home la.

so next time, wear seat belt. -_-"

and....
cheh. fadzli da tau edit-edit picture seh.
tak percaya, tengok arh the picture below.
editted by him ok.

ouh. and my baby knows how to blog already la can.
tak percaya, you can view his entry at
http://pure-addiction.blogspot.com.
the very latest entry is done by him ok.
siap dengan gambar, italics, bold and what nots. =)

so proud of you darling. =)

@ 4:36 PM

it just makes me wonder.

what in the world is they thinking.

i am not doing my work? they said that. but like hello, if i dont do it, then who did the events after kak su left. fine with me if they were to say that when kak su was around i didnt do anything. like whatever. as long as i know i do work, its fine by me.

but i am not doing my work? and i am not up to the standards?

which is contradictory because after saying that, they say i am performing and they would like to thank me for giving my all when kak su wasnt around.

can they like make up their minds? omg. blajar tinggi-tinggi untuk bodoh-bodoh kan orang pe? eh, aku blajar tak sampai mana la eh. but it does not take a whizz to figure out that you people are a bunch of manipulative people.

da bagus tu, aku tak complain pasal gaji aku dengan korang. stakat complain pasal gaji aku dengan family and fadzli. eh. i am bloody earning the same pay as wat i earned when i first started out ok. and now i am doing the job of two people. faham tak. tu pun tak cukup, masih suka-suka hati mak bapak korang bagi aku keje which is not in my bloody KPIs, and expect me to do YOUR work and at the same time do MY work.

and you claim i am doing my work too slow. eh pakcik, aku buat kerja slow pasal apa. pasal kerja kau jugak kan.

macam sial.

you know you love me,
xoxo;
thiraonthenet™

Saturday, March 10, 2007 - am i ok...?

@ 10:59 PM

real confused right now.

life's pretty complicated. is my r'ship with him on the rocks? maybe.
and whose fault is it? mine of course.
it had always been my fault.
i am pretty getting used to it already.

i love him. i swear i do.
but does he?
i am not really sure.
he said he does. i do not know.

i am really tired of crying. tired of getting hurt. tired of bottling up every single thing. tired of arguing.
tired of giving in.

every little mistake i do, it is entirely my fault.
i am human too.
i am not perfect.
i make mistakes.
i say wrong things.
i do not understand certain things.
its the same for you.

instead, you want to know about my past. every single detail of it.
when you know i do not want to talk about it.
because i think you've known enough.
because it pains me to talk about it.
because it hurts when i think about it.

but you choose not to understand. you probe me further.
you just dont seem to care how hurt i am. how it pains me.

you scold me for the littlest mistake i did.
and every single thing i say or do seem to be wrong to you.
i could never make you happy. i never did, didnt i?

i admit i said something just now that must have hurt your feelings real bad.
you said i did.
and i am sorry.

but i am hurt too. my heart bleeds. my heart's bruised.
and i think its gonna be broken too.

but you dont seem to care. even the slightest bit.

maybe you should just go.
since i cant make you happy.

just go.

i love you.
but its never enough, isnt it?

you know you love me,
xoxo;
thiraonthenet™

Friday, March 09, 2007 - ice cream date...

@ 10:27 AM

bless the boyfriend for entertaining me even though he was tired.

let the pictures speak.

our ice cream date last night after work.

and he turned my bad day into a wonderful one.

thank you.

you know you love me,
xoxo;
thiraonthenet™

Thursday, March 08, 2007 - the beginning...

@ 10:05 AM

of a bad day.

started out waking up with a headache. just let it be. and woke fadzli up for his in-service.
and he didnt pick up the bloody phone even after numerous phonecalls.

turns out he woke up earlier and already went to bathe.

then i iron my clothes for work. feeling a little lazy, i ironed my white jubah, just so i do not have to iron a top and pants differently.

then i went to bathe. only to realise that my shower gel is gone. ended up using the baby's shower gel which of course belongs to my nephew and my niece. at the same time, wondering where in the world is my shower gel.

when i finished bathing, i saw my niece standing near my jubah. and she was holding a brown marker. and when i checked, yes, there is a stain on my jubah. lucky its at the bottom. i didnt want to waste time so i didnt bother ironing another set of clothes. because then i will have to iron another tudung. speaking of tudung, i realised i forgotten to iron my tudung. ouh crap.

bless my mother for ironing the tudung for me.

so as i was getting ready, i couldnt find my concealer. searched for the bloody concealer like 5minutes, only to find it in my drawer, not in the make up pouch. uuurggh.
when its time to put on my eyeliner, i couldnt find my eyeliner. i couldnt afford to waste any time so i just used the eyebrow pencil to do up my eyelids. pffft.
and then when i wanted to put on my mascara, mascara da abis! ouh bloody hell, what is wrong with today. so i just had to make do with whatever is left of my mascara. =(

looked for my bling-bling watch, but i couldnt fine it anywhere. which is kind of funny because yesterday before i left for work, i saw it at the exact same place when i left it the last time i wore it. so i just had to like wear the white digital watch, which if you ask me, looks funny on me because, well, it looks funny with what i am wearing today. lucky its white. pffft.

then time nak keluar, i wanted to wear my white sandals. the last time i wore my white sandal was the first day when the koreans came to singapore. the best part is, there was only half a pair. i've got the right side, but not the left side. oh. my. god. i am bloody pissed already la.

then then then...
135 came as usual. it was fine. i thought my day will get better after all.

oooooo... but ouh no. it's still as bad. i reached macpherson at 8.45am. slightly earlier than usual. so i was waiting for bus service 66 or 65, both goes to bedok reservoir road, you see.

but noooooo.. i didnt see any 66 or 65. but but but... i saw like 135 4 times, excluding the one i boarded. i saw 40, 155, 154, 158, 61 and all the other bus services that pass by that road but not 65 or 66. and it was already like 9plus. and i was like supposed to reached the office at 9. i was already like fuming mad, i had to control my tears.

and i took the bus at 9.15am. 9bloody15am i tell you. so i reached my office like at 930-ish?

and like that's not enough, my computer is working bloody slowly. and my headache's back. and i realise i didnt bring my medicine. there's no more panadol extra on my desk. and i am coughing real badly. and a few seconds ago i just hit my feet at the bucu of my desk and it hurts real bad.

i want to cry...!!!! i fucking want fadzli now...!!!

you know you love me,
xoxo;
thiraonthenet™

Tuesday, March 06, 2007 -

@ 11:30 AM

i hate it when i am sick. because once i fell sick, it will take forever for me to recover.

currently i am coughing non stop, especially at night. and this result in me waking up just so i could cough thus disrupting my sleep. it doesnt help either that everytime i cough, it seems like a chore for me. because of my back. whenever i try to cough, my back will hurt, to be exact, the lower part. so whenever i cough, i have to endure two parts of the pain - my chest and my back. and due to the lack of sleep, i will have migraine when i wake up.

my nose is also runny which resulted in blocked nose. and it is really irritating because i cant breathe proper, especially when i lie down.

uuurgghh.

i took urgent leave yesterday because i cant stand the pain. i've been coughing non stop. plus i was having a migraine. took panadol actifast - dont help too much on the headache department. took strepsil cough syrup. not much of a diference. i swear if i were to go for a urine test yesterday for traces of drug abuse, i would have been tested positive.

today wasnt much of a difference. still coughing real badly. i was all ready to go work when i started coughing non stop again. was contemplating on taking urgent leave or mc. settled on mc. it doesnt really reflect well if i were to take urgent leave, rite?

resulted in me spending 30bucks on the doctor. pffft. and therefore leaving me with like a hundred to last me till month .

digression- i just felt my bed shaking. like really shaking. swaying from side to side? ok. swaying will be kinda exxagerating. but i feel it moving. must be some earthquake or something somewhere again. sigh.

anyhoo, i am totally broke this month. i do not know why. sigh.

i really hope i will be better by tomorrow. i dont think i can afford to take another urgent leave.

doctor's telling me to stay away from fadzli whenever he smokes. its another case of bronchitis. ouh bloody crap.

=(

i am currently craving for sushi, macd strawberry milkshake, mos burger coffee shake, nasi ayam penyet, bbq banana from es teler 77 and whole lot of stuff. =(

different note altogether.

went to watch the s-league game with fadzli on sunday. it was home united fc vs the korean reds or smth like that. got free popcorn and a box of free tissue.

and it turns out, one of my mi juniors is playing for home united fc. syaqir. it was like he looks very familiar from where i was sitting and i was very sure that it was syaqir. but couldnt see his name because he was wearing a bib. but when he was replacing one of the players on the field, he took off his bib. and yes it was him.

kewlies.

you know you love me,
xoxo;
thiraonthenet™

Saturday, March 03, 2007 - super extremely long entry...

@ 8:24 PM

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so, the koreans were in singapore from the 26th to the 28th of february. and we hosted them. =)

26th february, monday

we picked them up from the airport. we were like more than an hour early. hang around starbucks at t2. didnt buy any coffee coz i've got no buckaroos. pffft.

around 1150am, their flight touched down. so by 1240pm they were out. of course there was a group picture.

yes. fadzli was there to to help us with the hosting of the koreans. he took leave just to help me, ok.

while on the bus, one of them spotted fadzli and myself holding hands. heh. so they asked fadzli whether i am his girlfriend. and he said yes. aiyoh. i shy la.

and the next thing we know, the whole lot of them know that we are together. including the officials. eeeeksss.

did their checking in and such and off we went for lunch. at warong minang. food was bleargh. and the quantity was bluek. like macam kesian la. they serve the food like macam ntah la. no comments la. but no more warong minang for me please, thank you. ouh, and the koreans love rose syrup. haha.

so after that, we brought them to taman warisan. kewlies. so we had pictures galore!

so if you notice the last few pictures, three girls requested to take pictures with fadzli and myself. then they were joined by one more person. after which a few more joined in. lastly, almost a whole lot of them.

we brought them shopping after that. bugis street. like heaven la for them. one of them wanted to eat durians. but surprisingly, there wasnt any durians around. i accompanied yoo mi and charlotte for their manicure. apparently, its cheaper here, as compared in korea. fadzli and jo brought the rest of them shopping. haha. better la. fadzli knows how to haggle prices. i dont. and jo cant be bothered. lol.

they were very excited seeing the lion dance. and the lion dance people were also very excited when they (all girls btw) wanted to take a picture with them.

dinner at raffles hospital banquet for them. this time, it was like loads of food la. they gave us a dish from each stall. and its like 7bucks per person. dirt cheap right. a lot of food was wasted of course. what do you expect.

it was supposed to be more shopping for them. but some of them were tired. cant blame them. they just reached singapore. but some of them wanted to see the esplanade and mr. merlion. so jo, fadzli and myself, we brought them there. by foot. no joke i tell you. hahaha.

we were requested to take this picture. and please eh, it wasnt easy. they kept on like teasing us. see how red my face is. aiyoh.

they also like kept on pinching my cheeks la. haha. they say i look like doll. eeeksss.

sent them off around 1100pm.

27th february, tuesday

chinatown heritage centre was the first stop of the day. didnt take any picture there unfortunately.

wanted to bring them around chinatown. and bring them to the temple and the mosque which is side by side, to tell show them how religious harmonious we are in singapore. too bad the weather is not on our side as it started to rain cats and dogs.

brought them to orchard. shop at dfs. then proceed for lunch. lunch was at tepak sireh. wonderfully delicious i tell you. nice. they too enjoyed the food very much.

proceed to national library. they were really fascinated by the library. heh. brought them for the malay scripts exhibition on level 10 too.

was supposed to meet nads to pass her the volunteer form. only to realise that i didnt have her number in my handphone. and she dont have my current number. aiyoh.

dialogue session at ite simei. its not all fun for them la. haha. they are korean-asean delegates. waddya expect. heh. need to write report on youth movement in singapore when they get back to korea ok.

didnt stay for the dialogue session. heh. had to company 2 of them back to the hotel to collect their tokens for ite simei. heh. thanks for forgetting. =p

dinner was at han river. ok. not as nice as seoul garden i must say. but its cheaper. however, if you take into consideration of the variety of food, i'd have to say seoul garden is cheaper in that sense.

night safari. yay! fadzli dont have to ballot for free tickets already la for our visit to night safari. haha.

they happy happy la on the way there. heh. and main sabo-sabo. suddenly jo was called up to the front to sing. fadzli was requested to rap. mariah was suddenly a singer in her school days. ok. all thanks to me. lol.

first time to night safari ok. it was fadzli's first time too. ouh. and i super love the animal show la. and the animals too. aiyoh. so adorable. wanted to sabo fadzli when they called for volunteers for snakes. heh. but he grabbed my hands so tightly, it turned red. pffft.

the tram ride was, errmm, the animals were cute and adorable and everything nice. but ermm, the commentator, well, i guess, i've got no comments. heh.

dont ask me why fadzli muka macam nak kena sepak like that ok.

tired. reach home near to 0100am. pffft.

28th february, wednesday

last day. =(

toured around national university in the bus. and then it was to town. went to ngee ann city. the officials treated us to coffee bean after lunch. yummylicious. =)

shopped. some went kinokuniya. apparently, the books sold here are like much much cheaper than korea. ok. this is getting scary. =\

accompanied kim jin (one of the official) to dfs again because she wanted to get something for the students. walked in the rain. how romantic. yours truly forgot about the underground link from ngee ann city to lucky plaza. not my fault ok. pffft.

went back to 4pm after that. had dinner as well as they had a peformance for us. han sol played the traditional instrument. and she sang too.

and of course, a group picture in the 4pm. =)

sent them to the airport after that.

the items that were supposed to be used for their dance performance, which was not done due to time and space constrain. so they gave it to us.

thanks to me yang muka tak tau malu mintak, ok. =)

the guys, including the ite simei guys who were there for the dialogue session.

the girls, not all of them, and the ite simei girls who were there for the dialogue session.

ok. fine. i cried la when its time for them to check in. sigh. sad ok.

and they were all like telling me not to cry la. =(

it was swensen's after that. salha's treat. =)

fadzli and myself step romantic arh konon-konon nyer. makan sepinggan and ice cream pun share. padahal dua-dua segan. haha.

1st march, thursday

i took off. spend the day with fadzli. i learnt how to cycle ok. heh. and i managed to do so. cuma i cant start cycling if i am not against the wall. heh.

had my lunch kat void deck. stakat cup noodle jek. haha.

then went to tampines by public. maklum la hujan, macam mana nak naik motor kan. went tampines mall to catch a movie. we watched dreamgirls. =) had dinner at food culture at century square. yum-yum.








too tired. slept in the bus all the way home.

2nd march, friday

it was back-to-work day. sigh. if i've a choice, i wouldnt have like gone back to work on friday. but too bad i had 2 external meetings on friday. =(

saya penat.

you know you love me,
xoxo;
thiraonthenet™