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Saturday, March 10, 2007
- am i ok...? @ 10:59 PM life's pretty complicated. is my r'ship with him on the rocks? maybe. and whose fault is it? mine of course. it had always been my fault. i am pretty getting used to it already. i love him. i swear i do. but does he? i am not really sure. he said he does. i do not know. i am really tired of crying. tired of getting hurt. tired of bottling up every single thing. tired of arguing. tired of giving in. every little mistake i do, it is entirely my fault. i am human too. i am not perfect. i make mistakes. i say wrong things. i do not understand certain things. its the same for you. instead, you want to know about my past. every single detail of it. when you know i do not want to talk about it. because i think you've known enough. because it pains me to talk about it. because it hurts when i think about it. but you choose not to understand. you probe me further. you just dont seem to care how hurt i am. how it pains me. you scold me for the littlest mistake i did. and every single thing i say or do seem to be wrong to you. i could never make you happy. i never did, didnt i? i admit i said something just now that must have hurt your feelings real bad. you said i did. and i am sorry. but i am hurt too. my heart bleeds. my heart's bruised. and i think its gonna be broken too. but you dont seem to care. even the slightest bit. maybe you should just go. since i cant make you happy. just go. i love you. but its never enough, isnt it? you know you love me, |
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